I already told my thesis adviser about a week ago that I am not defending my proposal this term. It was a bad idea to start conceptualizing right this very term in the first place. However, the good news is that finally, the thesis is taking shape – I think so, anyway. I was determined to combine informative science (philosophies and theories of time and space) with personal essays (my MFA genre of choice is nonfiction). For a time, things were not quite falling into place with the melding of the science and the personal essay bits still being horribly disjointed and forced. It was more difficult to make the combination work because I could not invent details in my personal essays and I certainly cannot change the rules and theories of science and the philosophies of great thinkers.
Right now, I am going through readings from foreign authors such as Jorge Luis Borges, Gabriel Garcia Marquez, Virginia Woolf and Gertrude Stein. I still lack Philippine sources but I have started out with Gregorio Brillantes and Cristina Pantoja-Hidalgo. I am focusing on the narrative techniques (especially modern and postmodern ones) due to my desire to emphasize time and space in the essays.
If things still don’t quite work out then I will have to write a diaspora memoir on my seven years in Dominica, but I am not yet giving up on the modernist time-space memoir.